Tired and Rambling About Important Things

While I was a bit hostile in the last exchange, if he doesn't get it, seriously, I hope MC continues and stays up tonight, I really will continue. All the more important because I am still awake, and thus the hours will be long for me, so any conversation is worthwhile, at least as long as I don't feel that my intelligence is being insulted in the process, as is the case of my raised hostility in my last response. MC and I have weathered worse, but I think the rest of you need to understand that point.

While several conversations do ask of my response, and I will provide, here are a few points, some with minor consequences that I will provide:

The "Mother" posts will not stop. I can't help them.

The "White Wolf" posts probably will stop, even short of their originally intended beginning. Why? Because only one of you responds. Apologetically, I must admit, you are not one of the three of whom requested, and thus this was intended for. While I have yet to get to where I am, I will submit to base marketing strategy. If I don't get responses on my "White Wolf" posts that are present, I will conclude they are irrelevant to my audience and I will stop. I don't need them. I know where I am. I present them for discussion, and nobody appears to care.


The one alternative to the above is the answer to this: (even provided by the only regular responder, who himself doesn't care) somebody tell me what the dance is in that post so linked (under the side bar option "Archive of 'Mother' posts": "Lessons unlearned.")

Without address of what I am saying in general, or address to this specific piece, I waste my time. I will surf other blogs and desist here.

On a side note, regarding my surfing. I post links to what I think is good writing. I often follow on their post, but provide your thoughts on the posts where I link, so I know that you read them and what you thought.

In short: I aimed to interact with others in their belief systems and in mine. I have succeeded in the first and failed in the second. If you folks can't address me, and do so candidly as MC does well, then I am wasting my time. This site will become the occasional site of MC's fantastic poetry and short stories. I will simply engage elsewhere, where people are willing to engage their own thought processes without reciprocation. (Base, primary example for you casual readers? Look at my links on the sidebar, and look at who links back.)

It is clear (and acceptable, to a point, for me) that I am not a respected theologian within my own community. Hell, more of the Christians I link are willing to link back then my own community to whom I associate. This says I do more for them than I do for us. Why not abandon this then and engage online with them, keeping my theology relatively under wraps to my own brethren? Why not when they obviously don't care.

The masses I deal with that don't care don't bother me as much as he closer elements. The musical maverick who has hopped about, and whose title above belies the fact that I have heard none of her music, (Rather I have enjoyed only her personality on line, and her writing style, thus assuming her talent) has not associated with me. She is above me.

The wanderer of creative synonym who walks similar paths is impressed by her (the afore mentioned blogger) but not by me. Not for lack of contribution and option for track back.

In effect, I offer nothing. Chris Nelson once applauded my intellect in the spiritual realm, but then vanished. He served the time of my half of the "period of awaiting the child" and then he was gone. He made himself a good friend, but vanished without a trace soon after, nonetheless. Leaving my last option of reaching him vanished into the archives, the location of which I don't even know.

I link the wildhunt, but offer nothing of the caliber to rank attention there. My one main work being a drawn out, un-cohesive thesis in progress.

The aforementioned wanderer of a different pseudonym linker plenty of blogs with intriguin thoughts on Pagan paths, but left mine lacking, though I point to his.

Grey Owl also gave Kudos to me, but, while I make his stop a daily stop, he is not of my camp either.

In short, inside and outside of this blog, it is the christians and atheists that speak to me and not those of a similar path. Where are my similar minded individuals? I know you are out there, because I talk to you folks too.

Am I wasting my time out here? I began this for three of you. I continued for three of you, though two paid little attention. If none of the three of you can respond to this, I can understand. If none of the rest of you who keep coming back can respond, I may as well shut down.

Yeah, I throw quizzes and bullshit out to you. I won't keep this alive for that. My core subject has to matter to somebody. If not, this whole experiment dies. (Hint, this even calls to the lurkers. If you enjoy reading but have nothing to say, speak up. I am serious. This blog faces imminent death without demonstration of usefulness.)

Not I am going to try going to bed. In the mean time, and off topic: Thanks to stat counter, I know that my Buffalo State regular is either someone related by marriage or someone who knows him. You gave your direct association with this relative of mine (if you aren't him) via google search. Help a troubled mind out and just tell me who you are. I don't care about the foreign countries or other states that pop up otherwise, but you are the only regular that I can't identify. Tell the appropriate person, or tell me out here who you are. You are driving me crazy.

I think that is the end of my rant. Rant though it is, I hope it is taken seriously. That is all, and that is life, or something close to it.